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The Power
of being a LG |
For
me, what is a LG is something very spiritual. For me it means that for
some reason the Father has wired my spirit in such a way that what are
common issue to the "normals" get handled in a different way.
To me, what is a LG, is a thing of inner strength and most importantly
undeniable confidence. It is from identifying, accepting, strengthening,
and most importantly utilizing the LG spirit within me that all the
different emotions find their defining center. Emotions such as fear,
doubt, hopelessness and most importantly rage find that they have their
termination at the point of the LG Spirit. LG allows me to then take
the answers to these failings and focus them on positive and more worthy
initiatives. The fear that tomorrow and the day after that and the days
that follow will be ultimately worst is answered by the inner belief
that at the end of each day, no matter how bad it is, that I can look
at myself in the mirror and say that "I am still standing and that
the LG Spirit is still strong and can take more". The answer to
the doubt is to know that I will make mistakes..... major ones.... God
knows a lot of them..... but that if my actions were done with the best
intentions... in other words... that I make my moves with thoughts of
the 8 year old girl inside, that even if I fail I know that I did my
best. The world now days is getting more and more to the point that
adults feel that anything less than perfection is ultimate failure.
As a LG, I know what adults have lost or forgotten, that sometimes you
will come up short, you will go left when you should go right, and that
New York City is not the Capital of the United States.... giggle. Its
the LG spirit that allows me to say "whoops" and more importantly
to say "I'm sorry". With hopelessness, being a LG is the simple
knowledge that the Father had to have some reason to "wire"
my soul as such. It has never been a fetish or a physical thing to me.
To do so would align my gift of the LG spirit with the shortfalls that
have been plaguing humans since the beginning of time. I hold on to
the hope that each day that I wake up and know that the LG spirit is
still strong within me, and that somewhere the devil can not cross my
name off his list as one that was given a special gift and has denied
the gift and has ultimately fallen. Hope is my armor. As a LG, the Father
has given me so many gifts but at the same time the devil has installed
the failure of rage. I listed it as my most important because it is
the strongest and the darkest of all. This is what pushes me to be a
much better, stronger and faster LG. All that I have LG within me is
focused on combating what is bad within me. I know for some it is the
wearing of cute dresses and playing with dolls but for me it is the
knowledge that without the power of the LG spirit within me and the
others that the Father have blessed me with honor of knowing and counting
as sisters, friends, mentors and fellow WAGGGS members, I would have
fallen long ago. LG, to me, is becoming one with my true self and watching
the walls of doubt crumble. LG, to me, knowing that there "is"
nothing to fear for I know who and what I am. LG, to me, is knowing
that my victory is just one day, one hour, one minute, and one second
away. LG, to me, knowing that the uncontrolled anger of the adult is
now and forever kept in check by the heart of a 8 year old girl.
To sum it all up for me, being a LG is power.... the power to be me. |
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